Every year we give Thanks usually around a big dinner table, surrounding by those we love. It’s an appropriate time to give thanks. There is a lot to be thankful for.
This year, I want to give Thanks now. And every day it seems that I am becoming ever grateful for my life and those around me. For a couple of weeks, I had an intense bout of jealousy. I was jealous for what other people do. What other people have. The lives they lead. The bodies they’re in. It was ridiculous and necessary all at the same time.
Why was my jealousy ridiculous? Because I have a fabulous life. My husband is one of the most loving, adoring men I have ever met. He is so patient with me and puts up with so much of my crap sometimes I’m amazed he doesn’t up and leave. I am truly blessed to have him as my partner and my lover and my life. I have beautiful, amazing children. These kids are good kids. And that’s not just my bias as a Mom coming out either. People who spend time around my kids will tell you the same thing. They are well mannered, polite, interesting, cool people. I have friends who care. People who care about me and are there to celebrate, cry and rejoice with me. I have a job. Maybe not the ideal one but it’s a job. It affords me the ability to pay my mortgage, put food on the table and survive in this world. I have health. I am not full of cancer, I can breathe, my skin isn’t fighting against me. I am healthy. I have a lot to be grateful for and thankful for in my life. These are all reasons why my jealousy was ridiculous.
Why was it necessary? Because it made me realize how much I have to be grateful for. If I cry, I have someone who pulls me close and kisses my forehead. If I’m afraid, I have someone who holds my hand and tells me it’ll be ok. I am able to hug and kiss both of my children every day and every night. I can’t count on both of my hands the number of people I could invite to a party or call up on the phone and all of those people would genuinely be happy to hear from me. I would say I live a priviledged life.
So what if I’m not living on the coast of Greece. So what if I can’t buy every new toy. So what if I’m not thin. When I’m snuggled up with my family watching yet another animated movie, or when I see my daughter so proud because she just treated her parents to dinner, when I got to experience the excitement of my family when we saw the sold sign on our house…there is nothing in this world that would make me happier. In the end, I’m thankful that I was able to realize how much joy, richness and fulfillment I have in my life. I’m thankful for having so much to be thankful for.