I have always been a fabulous resolution maker and a terrible resolution sticker-to’er. This hasn’t changed and it never will so I gave up trying to perfect New Year’s resolutions. Why? Mostly because it’s an exercise in setting yourself up for failure and I really, really hate failing.
Now you know how I feel about resolutions so imagine my chuckles when I came across a site that’s called “2012 New Year’s Resolution Generator”…hell yeah! I’m all over that…it’s the epitome of what is wrong with New Year’s resolutions. Some random online generator that has no knowledge of where you are in your life, what needs to be changed or what your personal goals are. So, laughing to myself, I clicked the link and waited on (barely) baited breath to see what my first resolution for 2012 would be…
Ready for it?
W.T.F. – how can some random generator know I actually need to rediscover and embrace spirituality in my life. And how can it be that, that particular item pops up first? *sigh* So I wipe that off as coincidence. Fine. I’ll play along. Again…click on the link, chuckling to myself thinking that the inter-ether isn’t going to get the best of me!
Second times a charm, right?
W.T.F. – again, is this machine tracking my thoughts or something? Meditation is a definite must for me. I need to get in touch with who I am, what I am and who I intend on being. Meditation is an excellent outlet for this particular goal.
Ok…now I’m relying on the three strikes rule…click again, teeth gritted and waiting for some snarky “play less on the internet” resolution…
Not dwell on the past
*raises middle finger to computer monitor*
I’m pretty sure there are evil trolls in the computer that have mind-reading capabilities.
Despite those irritating little trolls, these three resolutions are so incredibly true for me. I am at a cross-road in my life and I’m struggling with the path that lies ahead of me mostly because I haven’t really dealt with the path that lies behind me. Imagine trying to lug tonnes of baggage through mucky sand…yeah, that’s where I’m at. So I’ve decided that I need to leave the baggage at this cross-road. It means that my stop here is going to be a little longer than I had intended but in the end it’s time worth spending.
Through attempting to offload some of this baggage, I’ve been dealing with some pretty ugly, brutal memories. It’s stuff like this that brings up some very hard questions, very hard emotions and at times, a terrible aloneness. BUT…it also provides me an opportunity for some closure. An opportunity to move past the ugliness and move into a better space. And each time I take that opportunity, I lighten my load just a little bit more. And THAT is a very good thing.
And for any of you that are wondering if those pesky little trolls ever found a sense of humour, here are the 10 resolutions that ridiculous program came up for me (yes, I went all the way to 10)
1) Be spiritual
3) Not dwell on the past
5) Find the time
6) Try harder
7) Be curious (ok, maybe this one is their idea of a joke…curiousity is simply a part of my nature and more often than not gets me into a LOAD of trouble)
8) Be me
10) Appreciate the simple things
11) Be fearless
…ok, I know that’s 11 but I just needed to see if I was going to get a funny one. For what it’s worth, my co-worker got 1) solve the rubik’s cube 2) learn to say hello in 5 languages and 3) Re-read a book from high school…apparently the trolls like her much better.
For those of you who’d like to giv’er a shot, here’s the website: http://www.moninavelarde.com/newyears/
For those pesky trolls…next year, I’ll make sure you’ve got nuthin’…oh wait, crap…was that a resolution?