Hi Everyone – miss me? Yeah, I missed me too.
Historically, New Year’s would roll around and I would think “oh yeah, blogging. Writing. It’s a form of therapy for me. Better get on that.” and then I’d come on here, write some post about my resolutions for the next year and then a few posts later, life would happen again and I would abandon the whole thing all over.
This year is a bit different. This year, I didn’t really make a “resolution” per se. Actually, I have been mulling the whole idea of “resolutions” over in my head. I kinda think they’re dumb. Unless you’re super goal oriented, super focussed and dedicated to the changes you want to make, you’re basically setting yourself up for failure. And who wants to start their year off by setting a hollow goal? Uh, not this chick. Not anymore anyway.
Resolutions, to me, signify that you’ve realized *a* change has to be made. Who knows what that change really is. Maybe it’s eating healthier, getting more exercise, watering your house plants, putting clean socks on. Whatever it is, the base of it all is that a change has to be made.
The thing I’ve come to realize about change, and I’m talking real, substantial, lasting change, is that it really doesn’t happen overnight, or at New Years, or in two weeks. Real change, substantial, long-lasting change happens over time and in very small increments. It all starts with a decision, a realization, a “light-bulb” moment if you will but then the real work, the real change comes with small decisions you make over the next period of time. It’s like retraining yourself to think, perceive, act, feel differently than you have in the past. It’s almost like training a dog – training a dog doesn’t happen in two days, two moments or even two months. The decision to GET a dog takes seconds but then it’s years of hard work, patience, failure, and persistence. Changing yourself is sorta the same thing.
Sure I need to lose a
few many pounds, sure I need more exercise, sure I need to achieve some of the goals I’ve shuffled to the wayside but really the only thing I’m resolving to do is be patient with myself. Acknowledge my changes, accept them, keep working on them because I really like who I’m becoming. I like the direction my life is headed. The other things will fall into place once I get myself to a more comfy place. And that’s happening. Slowly but surely.